Well, with my depressive, emo, angsty lifestyle, it was bound to happen sooner or later. *if anybody still watching me cares*

I'm getting gray hairs all over. And I'm only 22, mind you.

Take a guess at what's causing me to prematurely gray...

I'd wager it's the whole thing between me and my ex-, piled on top of the fact that I might possibly go to prison over some private matter that's happened in my real life. Maybe I could kill myself rather than let them take me THERE...

I feel so old and worn down inside, and this 'salt & pepper' hair cropping up is proving that feeling to be true. I've been through so much shit in my personal life. Sure, it's nothing compared to most people, but I can't handle it.
For any who care, it's now been 4 months about since my ex decided to move on to be super-happy with someone else and leave my life a wreck that's been spiraling downhill rapidly.




If anybody DOES still care, send me an email at hanakia@witty.com. I'd appreciate it. I'd like to have SOMEONE online to keep in touch with even though I lost my Internet connection at home and can only use public computers to get on now.



I'd blame this all on Shana, but I still love her too damned much to get angry at her...I WANT to get angry, but I can't. I just can't....it isn't fair...